Monsters

When I met you darling, the battle had just ended
I made it out alive, alone
I let my life get started, tainted with the fear that
My doubts would recover and destroy it all

You love me now and you chase away all that I dread
But you don’t know that this monster lurks deep in my head, waiting

I cried myself to sleep once, won’t ever do it again
It didn’t change a thing for me
I wanted to be better, wanted something more than a house and a job and a different last name
I try to keep it all in by tearing up my own skin
Wasting all my time fighting
That’s when you step in and say
All the words I want to believe but I’m always there dragging me down